As a mother, I know how hard it is to remember to relax and enjoy life. I’m going to share a story with all of you. During one of my morning pages; I was thinking about all the stress I have and how I also get caught up in the stress other people share.
I started to think about how I have to run around all day up and down going and coming.. I also have a business to run, dinner to cook, clothes to wash, and a house to clean. It was overwhelming to think about. During this moment, my parents popped into my mind. I was thinking about when I was kid and how much easier it was to rely on my parents for everything. I realized that I was providing for my kids the same how my parents provided for me when I was growing up. They had a landscaping business where they had to travel for work and well, they were just as busy as I am now.
I had a particular memory pop up. One day at school, I got sick and my mom didn’t have a way to pick me up. I ended up staying in the nurse's office until my sister got out of her school to walk me home. I was so mad and upset at my mom. I thought, “How can my mom just leave me there? I was sick! How dare she.”
When I thought about that I started to cry because I realized I've been holding a grudge with her since that day. I realized how much my parents did for me and how much they worked to put food on the table at the end of the day. I hadn’t considered that my mother felt horrible since she couldn’t come pick up her sick daughter from school. I didn’t consider that she was working to earn a living for her family. As a mother or parent, it’s all about making sure that everyone is safe with full tummies, warm clothes, and a roof over their heads.
I am so thankful to have the mom I have. How many of those incidents exist where I assumed something or perceived something that wasn't there? Reshaping my memories so that I can replace my anger with appreciation for everything my mother has done for me is the best way to grow.
It’s not what you see it’s how you see it….
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